I apologize for my lengthy absence. To be honest I have not been looking forward to writing this post for several reasons. The first and main reason being pride. I guess the only way to go about this is to just lay it all out there...
As mentioned in a previous post I fell off a horse on March 9, injuring my shoulder. I was very lucky that it was a non-surgical injury and was expected to recover with a few weeks off. Unfortunately the fall also started a chain of events that turned my life upside down.
There was another health scare that was brought to light from the scans they took at the ER on March 9th, luckily I got the biopsy results back last Friday and everything is benign. I narrowly missed not one, but two surgeries in less than a month's time!
I guess the biggest change this all brought on, and where the pride factor comes in, is that due to me not being able to ride for several weeks I lost my job. I am extremely lucky that I have parents who are not only willing, but able, to let me move back in with them for a short while.
The heartbreaking changes that have occurred due to all of this is having to find a new home for my dog. Luckily an old friend from high school was looking for another dog; her and her boyfriend fell in love with Cowboy. I hate that I had to give him up, but he is not a house dog and my parents don't have a yard for him to run and play in. The part that sucks the most (sorry, that is the only way to explain it) is that now I am faced with finding a home for my horse. After a lot of thinking, soul-searching, and prayers I have decided that my goal is to go back to school; to do this I cannot have a horse. As much as it breaks my heart (I am literally tearing up as I am typing this out), Flint needs to go.
If you have followed my blog at all in the past couple of months then you know Flint is a little too smart for his own good sometimes and can be a bit of a special case. It is because of this that I have decided not to sell him, but rather to find him a suitable home and give him to them. To make him marketable to sell I would have to put in a lot of time and money that I don't really have. By offering to give him away I not only have complete say over where he goes but I don't have to be able to guarantee anything about him. My biggest fear is that people are thinking I'm trying to "pawn" him off on somebody; that is about as far from the truth as one can get. Other than my high school horse, Onyx (who is going to a friends' farm about an hour from Little Rock to retire), I have never enjoyed another horse as much as I enjoy Flint. The selfish part of me is giving him away because the thought of getting him going and competing only to sell him breaks my heart.
With all these factors I hope that you can see why I have been absent from my blog lately. Don't worry though, I plan on continuing to post - it was just getting this first one out that will hurt the most. Living in my parents' house again I doubt I will be doing much "craftiness" for myself, but my mom has several pieces of furniture she is going to let me play around with...so we shall see what kind of trouble I can get myself into in Little Rock.
